Sometimes What you want doesn't match up to what you need...........
Sometimes What you thought was the right thing might not be the God thing....
Sometimes you gotta be selfless as a result of you being Selfish......
Sometimes the breaking point no longer is a bad dream but becomes a reality......
Sometimes you have to be reminded that you was bought with a price and as a result you no longer belong to yourself.....
Sometimes Slavery is more valueable than being the Slave owner........
Sometimes............... Sometimes................ Sometimes happens....
- Minister Michael Johnson
Friday, January 16, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
the best is yet to come.
my belief for 2oo9 is that the best is yet to come
i believe that God will blow my mind, and all the
things hes promised and spoken over my life will
begin to manifest..tonite dana's mom auntie hailey
said " the time is out for mediocrity" how right was she?
we only get one life given to us on this Earth,
and though man's days are all filled with trouble
we have the power to pray and get a handle on those
things that trouble us, if i can testify for a moment.
ive been struggling with something and those closest
to me know what im talking about , and ive been wanting
to forgive and get over it, but my pride & flesh were
really getting the best of me. so as i do in any situation
that affecting my mind i go to God and ask for guidance, and
for a solution cause if theres on thing i hate its dissension
i hate to be at odds with anyone and as ive matured ive learned
to find a way to settle the problem but pride was like no way !
so i spoke to my favorite and he gave me words and really helped
see that i was being immature and being a christian i have to remember
that no matter what anyone does to me forgiveness has to be on the other
side of my anger, i have to love regardless. sister gail compared forgiveness
to Gods forgiveness in a a relationship and God loves us so much
that no matter what we do He'll always be waiting for us to repent and come home.
this is the mindset ive been trying to take, and i refuse to succumb to the flesh
and let my pride prevent me from forgiving those who have wronged me its easy
to forgive , but forgetting is the issue.
but anyway i prayed that God would help me settle this and HE already has begun
the process...i love my God so much im just like in love with Him and all he has done
for me just blows my mind... but what i love most is the best is yet to come !
i believe that God will blow my mind, and all the
things hes promised and spoken over my life will
begin to manifest..tonite dana's mom auntie hailey
said " the time is out for mediocrity" how right was she?
we only get one life given to us on this Earth,
and though man's days are all filled with trouble
we have the power to pray and get a handle on those
things that trouble us, if i can testify for a moment.
ive been struggling with something and those closest
to me know what im talking about , and ive been wanting
to forgive and get over it, but my pride & flesh were
really getting the best of me. so as i do in any situation
that affecting my mind i go to God and ask for guidance, and
for a solution cause if theres on thing i hate its dissension
i hate to be at odds with anyone and as ive matured ive learned
to find a way to settle the problem but pride was like no way !
so i spoke to my favorite and he gave me words and really helped
see that i was being immature and being a christian i have to remember
that no matter what anyone does to me forgiveness has to be on the other
side of my anger, i have to love regardless. sister gail compared forgiveness
to Gods forgiveness in a a relationship and God loves us so much
that no matter what we do He'll always be waiting for us to repent and come home.
this is the mindset ive been trying to take, and i refuse to succumb to the flesh
and let my pride prevent me from forgiving those who have wronged me its easy
to forgive , but forgetting is the issue.
but anyway i prayed that God would help me settle this and HE already has begun
the process...i love my God so much im just like in love with Him and all he has done
for me just blows my mind... but what i love most is the best is yet to come !
Sunday, December 21, 2008
look at me.
so many things have changed this year,
i was told the number 8 meant new beginnings.
and when i look over the year 2oo8 i see nothing
but that.. God changed soooo much for me , and
through the tears and the hurt hes brought me
closer to him, and thats all that matters,
the national evangelist joyce rogers was at my church
on sunday and while she was doing altar call she said
" God says some of the things you lost this year you
arent going to get back .. hes not going to replace them
hes not going to give you anything , nothing but HIM."
&& thats all i want..
i dont want love ,
i dont want friendship
i dont want everyone to love me
but God if i could just rest in your arms
in your presence in your house forever
there ill be satisfied...
though it hurt and youve had
to literally rip me away from people
( hey you created me with this heart
that loves sooo hard ) im thankful you
did it cause you're the only one worth
the love this heart has...
i was told the number 8 meant new beginnings.
and when i look over the year 2oo8 i see nothing
but that.. God changed soooo much for me , and
through the tears and the hurt hes brought me
closer to him, and thats all that matters,
the national evangelist joyce rogers was at my church
on sunday and while she was doing altar call she said
" God says some of the things you lost this year you
arent going to get back .. hes not going to replace them
hes not going to give you anything , nothing but HIM."
&& thats all i want..
i dont want love ,
i dont want friendship
i dont want everyone to love me
but God if i could just rest in your arms
in your presence in your house forever
there ill be satisfied...
though it hurt and youve had
to literally rip me away from people
( hey you created me with this heart
that loves sooo hard ) im thankful you
did it cause you're the only one worth
the love this heart has...
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
when it hurts so bad.
i became attached to him because i'd lost love for him. noone mattered to me more than him he was my best friend he comforted me, he protected me, and was there as a friend whenever i needed him, and he was attached to me as well. we did everything together we became ATTACHED TO ONE ANOTHER.
but thats exactly what it was attachment. i lived off of him. in my weakest state he was everything i needed.
my sanctuary , with him the worlds problems went away. when he was angry i was hurt, when he yelled i cried, when i upset him i would do everything in my power to make it right because i neeeeded his friendship. i needed that security. i needed to know that while everything around me was changing, he'd always be there .
and i think thats why its so hard being without him now. cause i dont have that protection, that friendship, that sanctuary, when the my problem's became too much i ran to him, didn't even have to explain he just provided the comfort i needed with his jokes or his laughter...i sought him for everything, but that was the problem.
when God caused us to separate it hurt me so deeply, i cried myself to sleep EVERY night, i could see why God wanted us to be apart, but i was afraid to be on my own , and without him. God revealed himself to me.. reminding me that HE's my sanctuary my protection, my best friend, my love, my everything. and before he was there God was there...
but thats exactly what it was attachment. i lived off of him. in my weakest state he was everything i needed.
my sanctuary , with him the worlds problems went away. when he was angry i was hurt, when he yelled i cried, when i upset him i would do everything in my power to make it right because i neeeeded his friendship. i needed that security. i needed to know that while everything around me was changing, he'd always be there .
and i think thats why its so hard being without him now. cause i dont have that protection, that friendship, that sanctuary, when the my problem's became too much i ran to him, didn't even have to explain he just provided the comfort i needed with his jokes or his laughter...i sought him for everything, but that was the problem.
when God caused us to separate it hurt me so deeply, i cried myself to sleep EVERY night, i could see why God wanted us to be apart, but i was afraid to be on my own , and without him. God revealed himself to me.. reminding me that HE's my sanctuary my protection, my best friend, my love, my everything. and before he was there God was there...
Monday, November 24, 2008
you make me better.
so a friend told me yesterday
that i was doing better
in not being a rude, but
we wasnt sure that i didnt
want to be rude, and that
he thinks i like it.
which in a sense could be true.
i love expressing how im feeling
because it makes me feel better
but many times that comes with a
lack of thought for how what im
saying or doing can make the
other person feel. Initially
i tried to justify being rude,
but i opened my bible, and there
it was clear as day:
"he who restrains his lips has knowledge"
- proverbs 17: 27.
cant argue with that.
im thankful for friends
who allow me to see myself
a little more clearly.
now if i could only help them.
that i was doing better
in not being a rude, but
we wasnt sure that i didnt
want to be rude, and that
he thinks i like it.
which in a sense could be true.
i love expressing how im feeling
because it makes me feel better
but many times that comes with a
lack of thought for how what im
saying or doing can make the
other person feel. Initially
i tried to justify being rude,
but i opened my bible, and there
it was clear as day:
"he who restrains his lips has knowledge"
- proverbs 17: 27.
cant argue with that.
im thankful for friends
who allow me to see myself
a little more clearly.
now if i could only help them.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
true love.
true love.
a kiss on the lips from Jesus as you pray
the touch of God's hand upon your life
intimacy with God through His Word
love songs written to you in the form of the bible
Jesus sacrificing his life, for everything you are.
seek & understand these things, and i guarantee
you'll come to know true love, cause i swear im here
and im falling in love...
a man or woman cannot satisfy your need for companionship
until you truly find that missing piece of yourself in Christ. I realize
now that trying to fall in love or seek a relationship without
first having that intimacy with God is POINTLESS. God is a jealous
God and how can i be in love with someone else, when im not completely
in love with Him. When youre precious to God, he's stingy with you, and He
will not allow anyone to put their fingerprints on His trophy..
a kiss on the lips from Jesus as you pray
the touch of God's hand upon your life
intimacy with God through His Word
love songs written to you in the form of the bible
Jesus sacrificing his life, for everything you are.
seek & understand these things, and i guarantee
you'll come to know true love, cause i swear im here
and im falling in love...
a man or woman cannot satisfy your need for companionship
until you truly find that missing piece of yourself in Christ. I realize
now that trying to fall in love or seek a relationship without
first having that intimacy with God is POINTLESS. God is a jealous
God and how can i be in love with someone else, when im not completely
in love with Him. When youre precious to God, he's stingy with you, and He
will not allow anyone to put their fingerprints on His trophy..
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
bored.
You are trapped in a room with your ex for three days what do you do?
day one : argue
day two: laugh
day three: laugh argue kill each other.
You are stuck on an elevator with the person you fell the hardest for what happens?
cry
Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you what do you do?
shake my head and say here we going again.
When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friends?
back n the day.
Who is the last person you had a sleep over with?
who else? dana necole
Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?
a day i the life.
Who is the last guy you talked to?
thomasssssssss.
Who is the last person you had a deep conversation with?
keana .
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my old pastor and wife, love em
What do you wear more; jeans sweat pants or shorts?
jeanssss.
Would you consider being married/engaged right now?
engaged sure, married no only because im still in school.
What is one thing you do before you go to sleep?
cover my face.
Have you ever broken someones heart?
yea.
Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
anytime.
Have you ever said you would never love again?
yep
Do you say sorry first?
if im forced to, humility right?
What pisses you off?
liars.
Has someone ever made you a promise and broken it?
who hasnt except dana & keana?
Do you like your name?
its whatever.
Do you have any older siblings?
no
When was the last time you were on the phone after two am?
last night.
Was middle school a bad experience for you?
nope.
Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
whack.
Do you tell your best friend everything?
only God knows it all.
When do you get the butterflies?
last time i had butterflies the boy with the beard laid his head on my shoulder.
if your single why?
i refuse to trust.
When was the last time you talked to your number one?
today, hii david !
Have you ever cried and didnt know why?
yep
do you have any plans for tomorrow?
breathing.
How old do you think you will be when you finally have children?
24
Would you rather watch football or baseball?
football
What made you happy today?
nothing at all. noone at all.
what is your middle name?
yvonne.
where will you be in an hour?
sleep.
could you date someone taller than you?
im like 3 feet tall.
do you like cuddling?
with him.
do you miss anyone?
yeah my boys.
do you like country music?
yah trick yah
are looks important?
yeah. of course
what are you looking forward to in the next couple of months?
christmas.
is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
its all natural..
how old are your siblings?
11 8 6
who did you sleep with last night?
me & my music note pillow.
if you were to die today would your life be complete?
i have God, so call that completion.
how do you handle stress?
i hide it. deep within.
do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
sure
is your hair curly?
at the root ! lol
what was the first thing you thought this morning?
i need a yes or no.
where is the next place you will travel?
the moon.
day one : argue
day two: laugh
day three: laugh argue kill each other.
You are stuck on an elevator with the person you fell the hardest for what happens?
cry
Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you what do you do?
shake my head and say here we going again.
When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friends?
back n the day.
Who is the last person you had a sleep over with?
who else? dana necole
Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?
a day i the life.
Who is the last guy you talked to?
thomasssssssss.
Who is the last person you had a deep conversation with?
keana .
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my old pastor and wife, love em
What do you wear more; jeans sweat pants or shorts?
jeanssss.
Would you consider being married/engaged right now?
engaged sure, married no only because im still in school.
What is one thing you do before you go to sleep?
cover my face.
Have you ever broken someones heart?
yea.
Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
anytime.
Have you ever said you would never love again?
yep
Do you say sorry first?
if im forced to, humility right?
What pisses you off?
liars.
Has someone ever made you a promise and broken it?
who hasnt except dana & keana?
Do you like your name?
its whatever.
Do you have any older siblings?
no
When was the last time you were on the phone after two am?
last night.
Was middle school a bad experience for you?
nope.
Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
whack.
Do you tell your best friend everything?
only God knows it all.
When do you get the butterflies?
last time i had butterflies the boy with the beard laid his head on my shoulder.
if your single why?
i refuse to trust.
When was the last time you talked to your number one?
today, hii david !
Have you ever cried and didnt know why?
yep
do you have any plans for tomorrow?
breathing.
How old do you think you will be when you finally have children?
24
Would you rather watch football or baseball?
football
What made you happy today?
nothing at all. noone at all.
what is your middle name?
yvonne.
where will you be in an hour?
sleep.
could you date someone taller than you?
im like 3 feet tall.
do you like cuddling?
with him.
do you miss anyone?
yeah my boys.
do you like country music?
yah trick yah
are looks important?
yeah. of course
what are you looking forward to in the next couple of months?
christmas.
is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
its all natural..
how old are your siblings?
11 8 6
who did you sleep with last night?
me & my music note pillow.
if you were to die today would your life be complete?
i have God, so call that completion.
how do you handle stress?
i hide it. deep within.
do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
sure
is your hair curly?
at the root ! lol
what was the first thing you thought this morning?
i need a yes or no.
where is the next place you will travel?
the moon.
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