im on my j-o ..

so i just got a phone call from a beautiful white named Rob offering me a position at his company! So there it is folks...I've got a job. I owe it all to Jesus! I want to start blogging more so I'll be back later on today with another post. Just had to put the good news into the atmosphere :)

"YOU'RE FIRED

In August I was hired at UCLA and overall it has definitely been a humbling experience. I've learned how to shut up and listen when I dont want to. I've learned to appreciate the fact that I can walk on my own two feet, and I can eat, speak, and think without the assistance of someone else. I've been waiting for my six month probation period to be over so I could begin to invest in purchasing a car, and moving into my own apartment. Today I was FIRED ! This is the first time I have ever been fired from a job, but I am EXTREMELY grateful. God knows I was thankful for the money, but I truly HATED that place. The only upside to that job was interacting with patients and having the opportunity to affect someone's life with my kindness. That is all over, and though it seems as though the things that God has promised me have been thwarted, I know better. I also know that Romans 8:28 is real, and God works all things together for my good. So dear me: Congrats on God moving you from one platform to another :)

dreams.

tis a sad instance to be in love and that love not be returned. to sit and wait for something that may never occur. falling asleep at night touching dreams that will never come true. where does one go when these dreams are the only reality that one knows ? when hope and tightly squeezed pillows are the anchor that holds you together..where do you go ? do you fight clenching your eyes, or do you open them & die ?

favourite songs.

nothing is more appealing to me than a man that loves God and music, because i honestly believe that being in love is like hearing your favorite song..or hearing a song you've always loved but haven't heard in a while...and i want him to be able to love me more than that moment. i want to be his favorite song..and i'll sing it beautifully...push play.

poll

if you're in love with someone should you tell them how you feel, even if you arent sure how they feel, or even if you've been hurt by this person before?


what do you think?

love & marriage.

there have been times in the past where my pride has attempted to mask my heart's scars in saying that i never wanted love, i never wanted to get married, i never wanted any of it, but if i can be transparent for a moment i'd dare say there is nothing i want more. i often come off as rude, or indifferent because i have the tendency to hide my emotions to prevent the public from seeing me at a vulnerable place, but my heart beats for love & romance, and i find now that it aches for love more than ever before. because i've been at the brink of it. i've seen a future full of it, and though that idea has been thwarted by the reality of the situation i still believe in it. the bible says in 1 corinthians 13 that "love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance" and that reminds me that if the love i possess parallels that verse then it must be real. it reminds me that the love that i possess never fails. so in spite of the present i know that the burden my heart carries for him is love, and if i remain faithful it will NOT fail.

maturity

sometimes we have to ask God to grant us the maturity to stay on assignment and not get attached.

manifest.

Is it possible to love someone for something they haven't become yet, and to love them in a time that has not yet manifested itself?

because i do. I love him for who he is in his fullness of God. For who God has created
him to be. And my soul recognizes that, and loves him for it.

screeech.

so i got into a car accident last night.
and the three most important people in my life
(outside of my family ... well sort of ) were with me
and i thank God for sparing us and keeping us safe..
i also thank God that my car still runs though it looks
PRETTY BAD ! nobody can take care of me like my God can !

reciprocity.

its the most amazing feeling in the world to find out that the person that you love most in the world feels like EXACT same way.

new flame.

all in me.

i wish i could explain
why im here in this place
standing beside you but i cant
its very difficult when God places
us on an assignment that we'd
never thought we'd be. its a little
more difficult when your heart is
on the line as well, but i love God
and i know he'll protect my heart.

live & learn

as im maturing im learning & understanding
that maybe i love people a tad much more
than they love me. ive been hurt by friends
and loved ones so much in the past because of this
but it cant be a quality in me that i wont be blessed
for..loyalty i guess some would call it... the thing is
when those quality people come around they'll understand
that and love me for it ... and my dear husband will not
have room enough for the love ill be able to give him..

its only sometimes..like these times when i miss him
do i realize that loving someone more than they love you
can be a slightly painful experience..but hey that usually
doesn't change things now does it?

19

so its pretty much
my birthday ..
one year away
from not being
a teenager...does
that mean i get to take
advantage of the excuse to
be an idiot? naw im above that.
happy birthday britteney yvonne scales
you were chosen by God before being
formed in the womb. He has made you fearfully
and wonderfully and every step that you take
in Him is ordained and ordered by God. every trial
every mistake, everything you've ever done He knew
about it..your past is your past, your dreams and hopes
for the future lie in Him, trust GOD and HE will
never ever fail you...He loves you more than you can
ever love yourself or anyone else..trust Him, and let him
redeem and refill you...He'LL ALWAYS BE THERE...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

two things.

one: God is good, i been struggling and struggling tryna find some release so i went to nana talked to her about it , and guess what she did? she calmed me down and prayed for me =] thank God for praying nanas.


two: i had a dream last night he said : " britteney, i love you. & i said i know i love you too ______ , and he said " no i mean i love you ".

i pretty much dont need to say anything else.

happy birthday keana.

so saturday night,
we took my bff kiki h.
to the orpheum theatre to see
justin nozuka , lenka & missy higgins.
can i first say it was an amazing show
three FANTASTIC artists who are very talented.
secondly, i took AWESOME pictures:







lenka, look her up. her voice is like an angel's





she's working the shoes





our headliner justin nozuka














meet & greet.
keana loves his hair.

Gustav Klimt.

one of my favorite artists, here's a bit of his more famous pieces:




musique





fulfillment


& my favorite





the kiss...

lost.

just because im losing,
doesnt mean im lost..
im just waiting until the shine wears off...

seasons change.

you lied in July.
We fell in the fall.
I grew cold in the winter.
Now im renewed in the spring.

God Bless you.
i'll always be here.

uhm.

i cant wait until he comes home.